""r s m x v i: blogs are only good if you update them ;-)"

"Alright alright, after getting this message twice i'll update....I'm such a tool.

So, nothing much ahs inspired my thoughts as much as this lately...

its entitled, Big Rat
1.
Big rat, big rat,
don't eat my millet!
Three years I've served you
but you won't care for me.
I'm going to leave you
and go to that happy land,
happy land, happy land
where I'll find my place.

2.
Big rat, big rat,
don't eat my sprouts!
Three years I've served you
but you give me no comfort.
I'm going to leave you
and go to those happy fields,
happy fields, happy fields,
who will moan there long?

so there ya have it, something to think about a bit.

mostly, i've been thinking about how people in shitty situations express things quite similarly, that is, the above poem is a 2500 year old piece of work written by the poor peasents of Wei living under one of the fuedal kingdoms of Zhou. Yet, it reminds me of african slave spirituals in the structure of it. I'd ahve to bust out some african slave spirituals to find one for ya, but trust me, it has the same basic flow and structure. "master, master, don't beat yer slave. I've worked so hard, and get nothing. I'm going to Zion, Zion, where noone will be sad" i mean....its a simple little poem right?

it seems quite easy to understand and relate to each others suffering and shit, and we see these tangible connections between two peoples in their low points.......do we have this same ability to easily relate to each others happiness? i'm not so certain. perhaps someone can be me some examples of how we do, cuz i'm having problems coming up with one....course, i could just be depressed and not coming up with happiness examples, but maybe i am not just depressed and there aren't any.........either way, i'm gonna keep looking for one, to see if humans are just inclined towards despair and therefore relate easier to it....cuz i'm beginning to think we are......as humans, focused upon the negative in all things......and not often on the positive.


The other thing that has influenced my mind, although not to the extent of the ol rat there, is Crime and Punishment, i'm actually about to finish this! i've opened it many times, and not once have i been able to finish this classic of russian literature, but damint, perseverence is taking me through! and i'm nearing the end....so, yea, if i wan'st sickof typing i'd talk about my newest thoughts concerning matters of necessary destruction

but i'm sick of typing, sooooooooooooooooo peace