Whats up guys, is been awhile for me cuz i haven't had more than like, a couple main thoughts going through myhead, but something struck me today...and i mean really struck me kinda hard.

i've always considered myself a person with a guilty conscience, like i always feel like somehow i caused the problem, screwed something up, or whatnot....i still feel this way, but i do try to not feel this way, which sometimes gets me into trouble

anyway, i say "i'm sorry" to people a lot, and i mean alot, in fact, many of you have probably noticed it, or if you havern't, you will soon enough......but i think i had a realization about this

cuz tons of us do it, all of us say "i'm sorry" when what we're talking about has absolutely nothing to do with a personal form of blame or guilt......yet, this is taking to be an apology....

*its not a fucking apology people...this is the breakthrough*
check it i say i'm sorry, when i feel bad....like most of us do right?

when you do something wrong, you usually feel bad, which causes the apology so instead of actualing apologizing, we just slip out an "i'm sorry" cuz both things happen sometimes

yet, there are those times when we're not at fault, and we slip it out anyway, and here is the brilliant thing, "sorry" only means "Feeling or expressing sympathy, pity, or regret" so regret can be a part of that apology, but just feeling sympathy...its fucking empathy to say "i'm sorry" not an admission of guilt, not the satiation of a guilty conscience, simple human to human empathy.

so this now means 2 things, i'm no longer gonna feel bad when people tell me i apologize a lot, cuz odds are i'm not apologizing at all! and secondly, i'm gonna try to use better language to apologize, i mean.....i want to actually express regret and sorrow....not just say "i feel bad that life sucks for ya cuz i was a dick"

so yea, anyway

p.s. - oh, and take the time out of yer day to look at how society [the simple society of our social groups and stuff] react with the dissidents and disturbers of our society.....
a wiser person than me once said, that the only true way to judge a society is to see how that society treats it's criminals and dissenters.......